"Just Run."

I will have to say the world is messed up beyond belief.  Each post I read makes me want to cry.  All these broken people, hurting, suicidal and depressed.  It makes me sad.

Sad doesn’t even describe the feeling.

Hurt, pained, disgusted, hopeless, panicked, hate, distraught, bewildered, LOVE.

I just want to take everyone into my arms and LOVE them.  I just want to hold them till they can’t cry any longer.  I want to tell them everything will be alright.

But it’s not.

I always hated when someone would tell me it would be ok, or that it can only go up from here.  It didn’t.  Just when I thought I couldn’t go any lower, I plummeted into disaster.  I wish someone would have told me the truth.  Told me life isn’t fair, life sucks and is full of hurtful people and pain.  You are made to believe there are happy endings, but you always wonder, “Where’s mine?”  The truth is, life can get better, it can go up, but you have to make it.

Now this may sound harsh but its real…

Stop being the victim, be a survivor.  Get out. Make a change. Leave. Run.

As long as you have a defeatist attitude, you will always be walked on and treated bad.  You have a choice.

Do you have legs?

Do you have a will?

Do you have any fight left in you?

Then run.

There is no reason to live in hell.  There is no reason to let someone hurt you over and over.  Pain doesn’t lie, it’s telling you something is wrong.  Stop taking the abuse.  Stop being a massochist, a martry, a victim, a rug, self destructive and weak.

YOU have the power to change your life.  YOU are in control of your future.  YOU are a capable human being. YOU are worth it.  YOU are not a bad person.

Run. There are shelters, there are friends, there are churches, and homes, halfway houses, foster care, jobs, apartments, organizations, groups, therapy, there is HOPE.

Speak out. Tell the world. Write about it. Tell the police.  Call CPS. Tell a counselor. Tell everyone. Your friiends, your relatives, a stranger.  Someone can help you.  What is the worst thats going to happen if you do?  You’ll be embarassed? Scared? Beat again? Kicked out? Lose everything?

Is it worse than loosing your soul? Loosing yourself? Loosing your life?  Because to me, that is worse.

Run run run… 

Yeah life sucks. What are you going to do about it?  There isn’t a pot of gold at the end of the rainbow, there isn’t a prince on a white horse, there isn’t a fairytale ending.  I wish someone would have warned me about life, but I also wish they would have given me a solution.

I have compassion because I have been through similar hells.  We all go through a different one, but hell hurts all the same.  I know what it feels like to have lost all hope, to hate yourself, to hate everyone, to feel sick and disgusted.  I know that feeling you get in the pit of your stomach when someone you love betrays you.  I know what it feels like to check out and not care.

But I know that it wont always be that way…. You just have to want it bad enough.

What is your freedom worth to you?

Do you like the pain?  The guilt? The suffering? The dispair?  Do you like being insulted? Do you like being violated? Do you like living in hell?

No one in their right mind would say yes.

So run.

Stop making excuses, stop being helpless, stop thinking of all the reasons why you can’t leave.

Run.

There will always be trials and pain in your life, but how much is up to you. To what degree?  You can never be completely happy, it’s not human.  The world is full of sinners, therefore there will be suffering. You decide how happy you want to be.  To be content is reasonable, to be filled with joy is obtainable, to be loved is possible, to be treasured is unavoidable.

There is someone out there that would love to help you, to guide you, to appreciate you.  There is someone who will like you for you and see how amazing you are.  Control and force can be a thing of the past, but only if you want it.

The question is, “Do you want to hurt now or later?”  Because no matter how long you avoid running, the pain only becomes greater.  You will eventually come to an end and have to hurt. Or you’ll end up dead.  So what do you want?  Do you want to keep wasting days, months, years on resentment, pain, and tears?  You have a life to live, now live it for Christ’s sake! 

You must run.

Run like you have never ran before.

Run as if it is a matter of life or death.

Because it is.